Yesterday Jared and I took all the donations over to Sunrise Hospital.
We had a number of people help out with their wish list and so to you we say
THANK YOU!!!!
It felt great to give back to the hospital that took such good care of my little girl when I couldn’t be with her.
I knew she was always in good hands.
We were able to donate 7 carseats, 21 blankets and a number of adorable outfits.
Again, thank you to everyone that helped out.
We couldn’t have done it without you.
After we dropped off all the stuff we peeked into the NICU to see if we could see any of Ruby’s nurses, but no luck.
As we walked back to the elevator I broke down in tears.
I wanted so badly to pick up the phone to the NICU and say, “This is Ruby’s mother here to see her.”
I wanted to walk into that room and see my angel still there.
I wanted to touch her and hold her one more time.
Instead, it is just a memory.
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Tonight, Luke wanted to watch videos of when he was a baby.
It was so fun to see him chunky and little.
Then it hit me again.
The crying.
Just seeing him as a baby made me sad that I don’t have Ruby around to video and see her reach all those milestones.
I want to have a baby in my home again.
Not just any baby though,
I want Ruby.
Awe I am so happy you had such a great turn out with all the car seats! You guys are amazing! And what wonderful examples you are to me and Ryan! Love you guys!
ReplyDeleteWow, what a great thing you guys have done. I know exactly what you mean about wanting to hold them one more time. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteWow you had awesome luck with your donations! If you do it again let me know id love, love, love to donate!! Im sorry I missed the post you were doing it :(. I totally get the sadness about wanting to hold them one more time and missing all of the milestones. Such a hard thing. You guys are already doing amazing things and are great examples to me! Hugs mama
ReplyDeleteI totally must have missed the post that you were doing donations as well...what a wonderful way to give back just a little. You are truly an inspiration.
ReplyDeleteThat is so sweet that you guys did that. I feel the same way about Primary Children's. They were our home away from home and my babies only home. :( The few times we have gone there I have so wanted to be like "Pierce Olsen's MOM" and just be able to go see him in the NICU again. I even think that on random days. I just want to hold him and kiss him. Sometimes I can't even believe that it is only a memory. That is just sad. And baby pictures and videos of my other kids make me sad to watch too. It just remind me of all the things I will miss with P. Hang in there. This totally sucks.
ReplyDeleteI love what you did. That is so amazing. I can only imagine how hard it was to walk back in to that place and know Ruby was not there. Love you.
ReplyDeleteI am sure that was so difficult for you being there but also such a wonderful thing you did with those donations.
ReplyDeleteYou are both amazing and so giving! What a great way to honor Rubys memory! I am sure it was so hard to go back and not have Ruby there! I know you miss her but you will hold her in your arms again! Love you. I think about her every day!
ReplyDeleteRuby is absolutly beautiful! So are you and your words. I found your blog through mine and I just fell in love with you and your family! I'm so glad you have found giving back helps in the healing process! I'm sure you have touched many peoples hearts with your blankies! I went to the hospital on christmas and donated CD's that had songs that were healing for me. As i left i cried and cried thinking I wish i could have been wheeled out of this hospital with my IzzyJane in my arms! instead she is in me watching and guilding me! I know Ruby is in you and is so proud of you! sending you love and light
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Beautiful. What a wonderful thing to do! Doesn't it feel great to do something "for" Ruby like that? My family adopted a mile of highway right by their house, and I felt such a great peace every time we have cleaned it. Something about being able to use empty arms for good in your child's name is just so healing.
ReplyDeleteGood for you. Especially to go back to such an emotionally significant place -- that takes a lot of strength.
I missed the post about you doing this also. Please let me know if you do it again. We would love to donate. I bet it was hard going back there, my heart still aches for you. I think about you and Ruby everyday.
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