Thursday, September 1, 2011

Timing

I have been thinking a lot about the saying: Everything happens for a reason.

I am trying to figure out if I believe this or not.

What is your take on it?

I believe MOST things happen for a particular reason even if  we may not know the reason, but EVERYTHING?

I just don’t know yet.

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In moving news, things are going well.

We are officially moving to Vegas on Sept 10th.

Jared found us a great rental house that will be perfect until we want to start house hunting.

Jared is liking his new job so far and I am sure things will only get better.

I am excited to get down there and be able to see my husband on a daily basis again.

I am not a “talk on the phone” type of person so I have had to over that since we have been apart.

He is coming home this weekend to visit and I am so excited.

Plus, I know he would never want to miss Payson’s Golden Onion Days Celebration ;)

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In baby news, I wish I could say all is well.

Here is the situation for those who are interested.

We got news at my 28 week ultrasound appointment that our little girl has Ventriculomegaly, meaning the ventricles (where the cerebrospinal fluid flows through) in her brain are enlarged. This can be an indicator of certain malformations or disabilities. The ventricles were in the mild to moderate category and since they were normal at 20 weeks the Dr. was very positive that this would resolve itself by the time I delivered.

I went back Monday for a 32 week follow-up ultrasound to see if the ventricles had decreased in size.

Unfortunately, we didn’t get the news we were hoping for and they had actually increased in size to the severe category along with the 3rd ventricle now dilated as well.

Some good news is that she couldn’t see anything else on the ultrasound indicating any malformations.

My Dr. decided to send me up to the University of Utah Hospital yesterday for a fetal MRI to see if they could see anything that didn’t show up on the ultrasound.

We are still patiently awaiting the results.

As of right now my Dr. is thinking she has Hydrocephalus (“water on the brain”) and is saying she will more than likely need a shunt right after birth. This will help take that extra cerebrospinal fluid and drain it to her stomach. She will have the shunt her whole life.

We are not sure if she has any other complications, disorders, or malformations. It is pretty much a wait and see type of thing.

Hopefully, the MRI will bring good news. We are hoping that all she will need is this shunt and will be able to live a normal, fulfilled life.

The next step from here is to find a good Perinatologist in Vegas to take over my case. My Dr. is looking into finding me one that will take good care of us.

My Dr. also mentioned that she would like to see me have another ultrasound in 3 weeks. If things are looking worse, they will put me on steroids to develop her lungs and then induce me early. If the swelling of her ventricles have also made her head circumference large, it is a possibility I will have a C-section. As of now, her head circumference is in normal range.

The timing on this whole pregnancy/moving/new job situation is stressful, but we feel there is a “reason” that we chose to take on this endeavor.

We are praying for the best and we will keep everyone posted.

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In less depressing news, I had my first and last day at our new pharmacy.

We finally moved into our new building.

Unfortunately, the day we opened up at the new store, was also my last day working.

It is a beautiful building and I am sad I won’t be working there.

Maybe one day when we move back (cross your fingers), I will be able to work there a little bit.

I have been working for Brent, my boss, every since I moved back to Utah from San Diego so it was sad to say good-bye.

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The other day, I had a crazy idea to take Luke to the Dinosaur Museum at Thanksgiving Point.

What was I thinking?

It was a complete madhouse complete with screaming kids running wild.

Luke was even overwhelmed by all that was going on around him.

He wanted to get out of the stroller and run wild too, which I didn’t let him do out of shear panic I would loose him in the crowds.

When I would let him get out, he was getting so frustrated that he couldn’t see or touch the things he wanted because of all the people.

It was a nightmare and we were out of there within 45 minutes.

I made it up to him by taking him to lunch.

Next time we will just stick to Farm Country.

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Anyway, long post, lots of information.

Hope this finds everyone well.

13 comments:

  1. I like to think everything happens for a reason but who really knows right? I will be keeping you and little girl in my thoughts and prayers. Have fun this weekend I sure do miss Payson Onion Days!

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  2. Uggg I feel for you girl I cNt evwn imagine the sress your going thru righr now. I freak out jusr with moving! Your so strong! Your definitely in our prayers. Love you guys. If you need help with anything let me know!

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  3. Oh definitely not news you wanted to hear. :( I hope that the MRI comes back with better news. My cousin had a baby with down syndrome 9 months ago and as hard as that was, they have come to the realization that he is SO special and they are very grateful to Heavenly Father for entrusting him to them. It's definitely not easy, but everything will be okay. I really hope you don't have to worry about that though. And that your doctor can find someone down there to help you. If you have to deliver early, would you come back up here?

    We went to Discovery Gardens and got bit by mosquitoes the whole time. I think we'll stick with Farm Country next time too. :)

    Big hugs to you! And if you need anything, we are here for you.

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  4. I'm sorry to hear about the additional stresses in your life. I often wonder the same thing when its comes to the trials God puts in our paths. But I have faith that he knows what we can handle.
    I totally understand where you are at right now...again we sold our condo, Tate started his own firm, I was at the end of my pregnancy along with a crazy toddler to look over, and my baby had an enlarged nucal fold which they told me could mean he could have down syndrome or some other genetic deformity. I can tell you I was not happy to wait the 5 months until Tyler came to this world to find out what our situation would be. I was stressed out and had Tate give me a few blessings in order to make it through. Tate on the other hand always seemed to have it together which was a blessing for me. I am hoping for the best for you and your family. You are in our prayers and I know Heavenly Father is aware of you and loves you. Hang in there!
    Jody

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  5. You know that you are in our prayers and that I would be happy to do anything to possibly ease some of your burden. Not sure about the saying "Everything happens for a reason"...I've thought about this too. I have seen positive things come through suffering trials though and have to believe that those are the "reasons". You are amazing and will be a great mom to your beautiful girl no matter what. She is lucky to have both you and Jared and cute Luke for a brother.

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  6. Wow I have been waiting since Monday to know what is going on with your little girl. I do believe everything happens for a reason and it will all work out in the end BUT that doesn't make it any easier for you. Know that you guys are in our prayers and let us know where your place is in Vegas. Tommy and I are always looking for something to do in Vegas. We love you and are thinking of you

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  8. Things happen for reasons we may not know at the moment. Its part of the mortal journey. It can be hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know its easier said than done but its not worth stressing about the future. Let the doctors and Heavenly Father do the work. You be in charge and aware of your emotions right now. If you want to cry, cry if you want comedic relief find it. Whatever you do...Don't Pretend.

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  9. I left a comment earlier and began to rethink my tone and deleted it. Getting feelings across in a forum like this is tough.

    But, I want you to know that I do believe that things happen for a reason. Maybe not EVERYTHING. But, the big things. I believe that when we are prayerful (as I know you are), and when we are faithful (as I know you are), and we act on the answers to those prayers and faith (as you did), that the Lord blesses us in ways that He never could have otherwise. I am sure you are scared. But, I do believe the Lord has this under control. How could it be otherwise?

    My niece was born 18 months ago with spina bifida. She also had to have a shunt put in. It is painless for her now, and completely hidden under her hair. And, best of all, it saves her life everyday. As a family, we are so grateful for modern medicine and for our little Riley girl!

    We sure do love and miss you in San Diego. And, we will praying for you too.

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  10. I do believe that everything happens for a reason. I also believe that the Lord will NEVER give you more than you can handle. It may seem that He has more faith in you than you do in yourself most times. But I do believe that He knows what we can and cannot handle. I am sorry for the current situation that you find yourself in. It's hard to have faith that it will all work out when everything comes crashing down. I would look at everything and think, "What lesson am I supposed to gain from all of this?" I also recommend reading an article by Elder Dallin H Oaks titled "Timing". It's amazing! Our prayers are with you to have strength through this time. *hugs*

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  11. You are the strongest person I know! You take every challenge and beat it!! Hang in there and know that you have lots of us rooting for you! We'll miss you!!

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  12. My prayers are already with you. I definitely believe things happen for a reason and are ultimately the Lord's timeing. I'm sure you are keeping close to the Savior while making all of these BIG choices, sometimes I feel like that in itslef is a blessing when another big stressful thing comes up. Hope everything goes WELL!!!!

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  13. I'm so sorry to hear about your baby girl. Please feel free to call me if you want to talk. I'm sure you remember that Payton has a shunt and I would love to talk to you about it, if I can help in any way.
    Love, Shantil
    951-694-2406

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