It won’t be like this for long

Most of my posts are all about motherhood, but let’s face it…this is all I have on my mind all day long, so bear with me. This past Sunday I got in my car with Luke to go to church and the country song “It won’t be like this for long” by Darius Rucker was on the radio. I have never  listened intently to the lyrics, but today I did. Just listening to the song I almost started to cry, but knowing I soon would be showing my face at church I held back. Here are some of the lyrics if you are not familiar with the song:

He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all night
Layin’ there in bed listenin’
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK
It won’t be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laughin’
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
‘Cause it won't be like this for long

He lays down there beside her
‘Til her eyes are finally closed
And just watchin’ her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows
It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah, this phase is gonna fly by
So, he's tryin’ to hold on
‘Cause it won’t be like this for long

I am guilty of sometimes saying “I can’t wait until Luke does this…” or “I just need to get through this phase”. However, this song made me reflect about how quickly Luke has already changed and grown. I was talking to a friend of mine who was throwing a party for her one year old and she just kept saying, this has been the fastest year of my life! I know that is how I am going to feel a year from now. Yes, there are those days I try to teach Luke how to fall asleep on his own without me rocking him, but there will be a day when he doesn’t want me to rock him at all! This song made me realize I need to enjoy those days of rocking him because….it won’t be like this for long.

Now I am not going to lie, today has been a rough day with Luke. Nothing major is wrong, he has just been overly tired and cranky. Sometimes I wonder how I am going make it through the day and still feel like a productive mother & wife, but this is what’s so great about a day, it only lasts 24 hours and then Luke and I can try again the next day. Luckily, we have many more good days than bad. Each day that he grows & learns, I do the same. I learn what works for Luke & myself (another post about this subject to come later, I know you can’t wait!).

I hope I am not the first to admit that motherhood can be challenging, that sometimes Luke and I both cry together, but I do try and cherish those fun times with him. I am glad that I am the only one that gets to spend all day long with him. I know it won’t be like this for long and some days that helps me get through the day and other times it makes me extremely sad. I guess the reason I needed to write this post was more for myself. Even though most days I don’t have a clue what I am doing, it won’t be like this for long. Using President Monson’s advice I need to find joy in the journey, and for now my journey is motherhood.